Feeling damn fucked up now. Thought of Jiehao's comment, & realized sth. Sometimes, it rly is hard to make decisions of Cold Shoulder or False Hope. Especially if you don't want to hurt, but don't want to lie. But rly, i rather hurt now than kill later. Accumulation of lies aint funny at all. Sure, im cold & hav become oblivious to words since i dunno when. But how am i to entertain ppl who makes me feel as if im being harrased anyway? Maybe im being unjust, i don't know. Or maybe im juz having bad luck. I don't know.
Haiz, Tts y i only do things when im 100% sure Unless life surprises me. But so far its more of a torment though. Or At least.
