Went to some job application agency called 'Manpower'.
Couldnt find any Music related jobs from dere
Was asked to do EZ-link cards service assistent instead.
Maybe i've nv said this b4, but
It really is hard to get involved in de music scene huh?
Even work oso no such related stuff.
Or maybe tt agency juz sucked.I hope its the latter..
Tt WonFu concert i went to 2 days ago
It made me realize sth else too.
Those guys, who've been doing Music for 20+ years,
although they still can onli do small scale concerts, cuz they're nt very famous,
they're still so happy.
Doing music simple for the love of music, and askin for nth much else.
I kinda admit.
Been feeling down recently.
Nt rly becuz i canot go to the course i want.
More like, i feel tt im nt good enuf. Improving enuf.
Im scared i canot go to Lasalle.
Cuz, if i fail this last time.
I duno where i will go.
This uncertainty, i canot tahan.
& the band, has no spirit.
Teamwork, Unity, Clique. All missing.
Feel like, im walking alone.
Trying to climb over obstacles alone.
Preparing for whatever hardship tt's gonna come in this route, alone.
But i guess it aint their fault.
This Lasalle thing, i know they dun hav the skills to help me out.
But still, it sucks.
Seeing bands like WonFu who hav each other to support, feels like shit.
Envious, but...what can i do?
32 Days more to the audition.
I havent rly sat down and decide on what im gonna do yet.
Still trying to grasp the gist of jazz.
The 2 essay, its ridiculous.
But i'll start thinkin of what to write soon.
left; 2:49 am
