Gig yesterday.
First successful performance of my life!
Morning went training first.
Then cabbed to bugis to meet de guys.
Rehearsal for like 40minutes, then went walk arnd Iluma.
Brought our friends to L-cubes, den went for a 10minutes soundcheck.
We were de 2nd band to perform, and tt timeslot was just right, cuz there was just a freak lot of ppl crammed in de studio.
Yea, de place was literally an oven sourced from body heat. But tt is wat made it so appealing.
Was stopped halfway when de crowd started moshing tho. De boss was fuming and hollered at de audience.
I didnt care, so signaled de rest to continue playing.
Tt made de crowd happy ;D
The original was abit flawed, cuz my high E went off during de solo, tt i was sweating all over my fingers were too wet to even play properly, & tt de 3rd string de counter guy sold to me at L-cubes was actually a 4th string. Son of a bitch.
But doesn matter, i still got praised by de audience, and de organizer.
"Tt was awesome", "U got skills", "Ur guitar playing is great man".
These words made me fucking high!
I've forgotten abt self-love after time n time of living life for others.
Onli getting scolded and doing my best just to please ppl. Like teachers, parents, and whoever else authoritative.
It felt fucking great to get praised by others.
Spent de rest of my time watching de gig, sweating it out.
I think i perspired de most ytd, wif Karate and human sauna in 1 day.
Venka left very early, and Dan left after de show.
So dinner wif Anne, den went home.
She mentioned alot of things which got me thinking.
The crossroad of life. Which path will i take?
The current choices i have are to continue the law course, switch course, or try for lasalle.
My view: Im damn tired of this Law course. It's stressing, its sth i have to put my entire life into in order to graduate smoothly. Its sth i definitely dun wan.
But if i quit, where do i go?
Laselle may not accept me again next yr.
And if i chnged course, am i going to quit yet again once i grow tired of it?
Of cuz, I wont stop education as in entirety. Unless im getting a reasonable income from performing or teaching.
Dun wan my brain to stop thinking n learning anw.
So which do i choose? Its sooner or later i nid to talk wif my parents and make de final decision.
So conflicting, so confusing.
left; 7:16 pm
