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2009-11-10T16:42:00.004+08:00

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2009-11-08T19:16:00.004+08:00

Gig yesterday.

First successful performance of my life!

Morning went training first.

Then cabbed to bugis to meet de guys.

Rehearsal for like 40minutes, then went walk arnd Iluma.

Brought our friends to L-cubes, den went for a 10minutes soundcheck.

We were de 2nd band to perform, and tt timeslot was just right, cuz there was just a freak lot of ppl crammed in de studio.

Yea, de place was literally an oven sourced from body heat. But tt is wat made it so appealing.

Was stopped halfway when de crowd started moshing tho. De boss was fuming and hollered at de audience.

I didnt care, so signaled de rest to continue playing.

Tt made de crowd happy ;D

The original was abit flawed, cuz my high E went off during de solo, tt i was sweating all over my fingers were too wet to even play properly, & tt de 3rd string de counter guy sold to me at L-cubes was actually a 4th string. Son of a bitch.

But doesn matter, i still got praised by de audience, and de organizer.

"Tt was awesome", "U got skills", "Ur guitar playing is great man".

These words made me fucking high!

I've forgotten abt self-love after time n time of living life for others.

Onli getting scolded and doing my best just to please ppl. Like teachers, parents, and whoever else authoritative.

It felt fucking great to get praised by others.

Spent de rest of my time watching de gig, sweating it out.

I think i perspired de most ytd, wif Karate and human sauna in 1 day.

Venka left very early, and Dan left after de show.

So dinner wif Anne, den went home.

She mentioned alot of things which got me thinking.

The crossroad of life. Which path will i take?

The current choices i have are to continue the law course, switch course, or try for lasalle.

My view: Im damn tired of this Law course. It's stressing, its sth i have to put my entire life into in order to graduate smoothly. Its sth i definitely dun wan.

But if i quit, where do i go?

Laselle may not accept me again next yr.

And if i chnged course, am i going to quit yet again once i grow tired of it?

Of cuz, I wont stop education as in entirety. Unless im getting a reasonable income from performing or teaching.

Dun wan my brain to stop thinking n learning anw.

So which do i choose? Its sooner or later i nid to talk wif my parents and make de final decision.

So conflicting, so confusing.

2009-11-06T02:04:00.002+08:00

Didnt have time to blog.

I lost my phone. 2 days ago.

Went to buy my pedalboard & tuner, but ended up having too many things to bring.

I blur, so after dinner macdonalds i forgot to take my handphone frm de table.

As usual, no1 returned it to mac.

All these ppl shld juz go and burn to near-death, and get poured acid all over.

The day after i lost my phone, which was ytd, my parents morning straight away bring me to buy a new one.

Ended up skipping for PohBee tutorial, which my parents said late alrdy dun go.

Im so gonna get scolded, which im looking forward to.

Ill get more sad, then dowan go Lcomms le.

But of cuz if PohBee nv scold, ill have no choice but to buck up and do her work le lor.

Oh talking about yesterday.

Went for the SP audition on some big live telecasted gig.

Location of audition was at Chapter 6.

Being our first 'performance', we were nervous.

Turned out to be so-so onli, cuz screwed up a little big due to panic atk.

But i'd rather we learn from tis than learn from this saturday's gig.

So im glad we went for the auditions yesterday.

Haha, yea man.

Im almost feeling it, the high of performance.

Almost like an addiction, it juz feels damn good playing for others.

I hope de others feel it too.

Rape de house tis Sat.

2009-11-02T01:21:00.002+08:00

Gonna start blogging wif no swear words.

Try try, see if it feels right for me.

Cuz when i read back the posts, i seem to enthu, so happy.

But full of vulgar abbreviations. Dun look nice on the internet.

So tis post will be clean.

Missed a chance to perform today.

Organiser posted a thread on soft this morning, asking for bands for a gig this afternoon.

Reason behind is simple: Bands Last Minute Pull out.

A very drastic measure for the problem, but they dared to ask.

Crazy request for crazy people, but sadly we were'nt crazy enough to take on the request.

Hmm, more like i didnt feel tt Enecdote is a band who is always ready, always ON.

Its understandable tho, we lead different lives.

Aside from our drummer, the rest of the guys dont (& for deir own good, should'nt) take music as deir main portion of their life; be it social, education or work.

I can thus only hope their passion for music does not turn into stress.

Watching ppl buy an instrument & feel damn hyped, den quitting ltr cuz dey realized commitment is nt wat dey were looking for.

It rly sinks ur heart, no matter how many times it happens.

Dun wanna c another alrdy.

Well, audition for some gig on Weds, L-cubes gig on Sat.

Another gig on 12th December, and planning to join a competition on 17th Nov.

Lots of happenings.

All these are considered de-stress from studies for me. More stuff like these, i more happy.

But i wonder abt de rest.

2009-10-31T23:09:00.002+08:00

Fuck, lots of interesting things happened these few days but i forgot to blog abt it.

Thursday went to watch Tommy Emmanuel concert.

Fucking amazing performance man, i swear.

The whole concert hall was full, and half of it was ang-mohs (Caucasian, America, Australian all).

And his 1-man acoustic set rly doesn disappoint.

Simply his persona can captivate u, let alone his performance.

But u gotta be an ang-moh to understand his jokes. Cuz i didnt understand shit.

Its rly amazing, tt he can shred on an acoustic guitar, and sound damn fingerstyle.

Paul Gilbert fails to achieve tt badly, even tho both of them can par in speed.

I've long respected Emmanuel b4, but watching him play live is enlightening.

So many things i've learned & so many more things tt i nid to learn by watching de concert.

Im so fucking going to delve into fingerstyle one day.

Beautiful stuff.

Lets c ar, Friday.

Nope, cant remember shit.

Oh yea, i stayed home practising guitar all day.

Tt all.

Today was Karate grading, at TP.

Yup, 1st time i see so many White Belts in de Sports Hall.

30+ NP, 7 TP, 5-9 ITE, total 50+ white belts.

Totally overpowered by de sheer number of NP ppl in our own sch tho.

But who cares, its a good thing.

Grading is nth much, juz a ceremony.

After grading, outing wif de Karate ppl.

Plans were East Coast, but ended up in Parkway to eat Carls Jr.

Den JieJun hse. Sweet place man.

3 storey semi-d, nice house design, pool table, movie room

Bloody hell, I want a house like this. The movie room is a perfect for a jamming studio.

Buying a big house is now in my target list.

Im nw 7th Kyu.

Gotta start preparing de mentality to fight for real.

I've rched de stage where good music is sensational as hot sex.

I wonder if de feeling of andrenaline when knocking down opponents is like tt too.

2009-10-29T01:43:00.002+08:00

Wa fucked up liao.

Now is Law & Management Year 1 Semester 2 only, and i almost canot take it alrdy.

One simple piece of letter writing work i've also no idea how to start.

Seriously gg le, fucking hell.

Worst thing is we got a fucked up tutor for Lcomms.

Or at least, fucked up to me bah.

Haha, well doesn matter, its my problem tt i canot tahan de teacher's strictness & scolding style.

Im not even taking any CDS cuz i dun want to talk to her up front.

More like dun dare, but u get de pic.

Hell man, Poly intake n Lasalle audition is at March.

Now is not even 2010, and im rching my breakpoint.

Haha, im juz gonna watch how my life unfolds til then.

I expect getting snickered by de tutors. The Haughty look of PohBee when she fails you.

Of cuz its gonna make me feel fucked up, but aint nth i can do to chnge tt anw.

But these are trivial.

I wonder wat else is in store?

2009-10-25T21:27:00.003+08:00

Gig is round de corner, even im abt to tense up.

Doing my best to make sure all goes well.

Went pub ytd wif cousins.

Rly sick of beer n hard liquor, drank water instead.

So was totally sober de whole time. Tt aint a good thing obviously.

Nth else i feel like blogging down.

Today was so so day.

Woke up wif Anne at my doorstep.

Jamming wif Dan forgetting lyrics n chords, and me having trouble remembering wat pedals to switch on/off.

Walked thru bugis street realizing it has expanded.

Yea ordinary stuff.

Feel like going somewhere wif water and slack thru de night.

The thought of school tmr sickens me, so rly nid sth to ease tis horrible feeling.

2009-10-22T00:17:00.005+08:00

Good mood today.

Woke up in the morning and picked up my ringing phone.

It was an anonymous message saying tt i have won a pair of tix to Scott Henderson's concert.

I thought it was a joke, cuz ytd night i sent in my username n hp number to soft without giving much thought, and went to bed.

Went to check out the forum, and my name rly was there. Fuck yea!

Skipped sch cuz i didnt feel like it anw, and went to meet de Soft admin in de evening.

I went wif Dan, cuz Anne n Venka sadly cannot go. It would've been a total inspiration, esp for Anne. I've got no words to describe Jeff Berlin. He makes me wanna pick up bass.

Good inspiration, learnt quite some things from tis concert too.

Best of all, for free! Thank you soft.com.sg!

Realized i simply indulged in music cuz im missing sth in life.

I play or hear music, im happy.

I stop playing or listening, no more.

Like drugs n alcohol, potent but not lasting.

Mayb im getting sick of my course, mayb its cuz there aint much social life to be made in poly.

No chill buddies, no drinking bros, no gossiping girlfriends, no studymates, no love, no ppl i can connect to.

Tt aint good man.

Hmm, but i shall not care for today.

Scott Henderson n Soft.com.sg FTW! Many thanks!

2009-10-20T22:35:00.002+08:00

School has started.

The mood isnt tt good for me.

Stasha quitted sch, tempt me to quit oso. But i've parental issues, so cannot lor.

1st lecture got joked by the lecturer for bringing guitar. Wtf la.

I've no clue wat de lecture is abt, but i noe we've learnt it b4 somewhere.

Must try to pass this term, to please my daddy&mummy.

Cant imagine how ill get served by them if i fail or kena kicked out.

Study for de sake of study. Ever since Stasha quitted sch i've disturbed by this.

Watever, study put aside.

I bought 2 new pedals today, n rly having a hard time managing these.

Now for song parts i nid to step on up to 4 pedals.

Enecdote is somehow ready. Nid more sessions to master all de songs.

1 pedalboard costs $200. Up theirs man.

Got hit by a girl yesterday in the bus while goin home frm TP.

Haha, normally ppl hit me is sexy thing, but in a bus wif old ppl...fuck no.

From the Handicap cushion end slowly move to the other end where im standing, but looking somewhre else.

Didnt rly notice her closing in until i could feel her back on my shoulders alrdy.

Forced myself to believe she's drunk, so nvm juz let her lean n shutup.

Cuz beside me are elderly ppl, if turn dem off dey turn me off more sia.

When de bus was arrived at de girl's stop she turned and said Bye, den went off.

Curse those Ah Peks/Mahs.

2009-10-05T18:59:00.002+08:00

1 month more to FreshCubes gig.
Its Enecdote's 1st performance, and the band lineup pretty much has changed.
Finally we're doing things properly, and Venka n Dan pretty much has improved.
Juz worried for Anne, cuz she has relatively no experience.
But still we need her inside, or at least, I want her Bass inside the lineup =S
Her 1 looks fucking sexy man. Every1 sure gonna be staring at it thruout de gig, i swear.
N tts juz the way i like it.

Gonna buy a new guitar soon. One as eye-catching our bassist's bass.
And polish my skills, so tt the guitar can shine.
Then work together wif the band to prepare all de songs nicely.
So tt on tt day, after all tt hot and horrible trek to tt small and 'ulu' studio, the audience can chill out to sth called Live Music.

2009-09-27T16:44:00.003+08:00

Argh feeling like shit now.

Looking back at every single thing i did wrongly in life really made me fucked up.

So fucking immature i was, the decisions i made, the views i had upon others.

So fucking insensitive i was to every1 n everything arnd.

Friends, Love, Music, it was myself who sent all of these crashing down on me.

Fucked up attitude, lousy personality, closed hearted, self-obsessed.

Goes to show how much things in life i dun deserve.

If i could turn back time and take things easy during all my auditions, and practised with joy instead of stress.

If i could turn back time and not interfered in other ppl's life at all.

If i could turn back time and be more sensitive towards her feelings.

Rly got no idea how to make up for all these faults i made.

2009-09-23T01:27:00.002+08:00

Bla bla, lots of things happened, dun feel like bloggin down.

Sleepovers, Soccer, Kim come bak Singapore, teaching Anne, eat alot of good food, spend a freakin lot, etc.

But main point is Enecdote, the band im in, is performing for FreshCubes on the 7th of November.

Cuz nid to sell tickets, and the other band im in has a no-tix-selling-gig policy.

So Enecdotes performing instead.

But who cares, i can perform.

Step up de stage n play some music,

Rock the crowd & get every1 moving!

But the ticket price is $6 tho.

I wonder who will buy.

2009-09-12T18:25:00.003+08:00

Hoho, the strangest thing happened today.

Slept at 6am, and woke at 8am for Karate.

So I think its becuz of lack of sleep that this shit happened.

During training, i suddenly had my vision fucked.

My sight directly in front of me got blurred, and i cant read words.

And it got worse.

The blurred vision spreaded out from the centre, the shape an expanding oval

I ended up not being able to see everything clearly.

Made me realize how reliant i am on sight btw, cuz i was horribly disoriented.

This shit lasted like 5-10 minutes before my sight regained.

But my eyes started to hurt like fuck after tt.

Felt like throwing up, but managed to hold it back.

Tho its juz the eyes, it feels like the whole body is in pain.

Taxi-ed home and slept immediately.

And when i woke up, im fine again =O

Big lesson learnt today.

Never go hardcore exercise if i do not have enough sleep. The aftereffects FUCKING FEEL LIKE SHIT

One time experience, nxt time dun dare le.

Cant help but wonder how blind ppl live their lives tho.

I was blinded for five minutes, and it was scary.

2009-09-11T03:34:00.003+08:00

Kns, duno whether to be happy or sad rite now.

Results come out, i got D for macro n D+ for POM.

Duno whether can take paper again, to improve my grade.

Then again, lazy.

These few days been resting.

Body aching cuz do too much physical training.

Enecdote has a new bassist.

Its the girl i met during Baybeats.

Haha, the world is simply fascinating.

Cuz Venka said some stuff, so i gotta be wary.

But still, it shld be fun.

I gotta be teaching her until November for de gig.

Rly gotta put myself and push every1 to de breakpoint, for de sake of finally being able to perform.

Fucking miss de stage.

2009-09-08T22:06:00.000+08:00

17th Birthday - 6/9/09

Someone mentioned how sick my birthday is.

All my life, I nv realized tt!

Saturday went out wif Yuan Hong dey all.

Watched movie and play pool.

Went home and didnt sleep tt night.

Partly cuz Kiang and Jiehao came my hse in de middle of the night.

Didnt even noe, until dey finally called and said dey've been waiting outside my hse for damn long.

Gave me a cake frm 7-11, wif 17 matchsticks planted on it.

The best present i got man.

Morning Kiang left early cuz he nid to work.

Jiehao and I left ltr. He went home and i went Dan's hse.

Listened and composed some stuff at his place, then left for Karate at 5pm.

So little ppl la tt training, but got to play wif de kids.

Went out wif cousins after Karate. Movie & dinner.

Haha, got a small slice of cake frm Hong Kong cafe wif 1 candle.

G-force is a shit show.

Or maybe is becuz im not a kid anymore, so i cant stand storylines for children.

I intended to hangover for another day, but was too tired thanks to Karate.

So i slept.

Woke up the nxt day at 1pm.

Rushed to compose de rest of de song Dan made.

I can say i finished, haha!

Rock songs are easy to compose.

Rushed to BeatMerchants for jamming.

Showed them de song, and they liked it.

I still rmb tt funk song for Asiabeats, put aside and forgotten.

Hear le oso sian.

But hopefully this song ppl will play.

After jamming, went a restaurant and treated Venka and Dan.

Spend abit nia, cuz onli 2 ppl drink so the mood wasnt there.

Today was the gay one.
Woke up at 2pm, jamming was 3pm.
So rushed like fuck and cabbed to Chapter 6.
Stasha gave me a Guitar Book and a card for present.
It wasnt the book tt got me, its de scrapbook card.
Sweet stuff man, thanks girl.
After jamming went to East Coast Lagoon hawker wif Law peeps.
Onli 9 ppl, but its alrite.
Lol la, we walked the wrong direction to Lagoon.
Ended up at de Big splash instead, which is so fucking far away.
So ended up cabbing to Lagoon, cuz all walk till half-dead alrdy.
Makan dere is quite costly, and not full 1.
Dun think every1 budget can tahan, so i went buy abit more stuff for us all.
Lol, ended up paying alot more. But i dun mind.
This month, everything's gotta go.
Not to me, but to others.
Friends, family, girlfriend, whoever.
Happiness? Its juz shit if i've got no1 to share it wif.

Then i cabbed home wif Stasha and Sahail.
I think im gonna be broke soon.
Then lets hope sth good happens so i wont starve!

2009-09-01T01:08:00.004+08:00

ALamak.

My left hand is injured cuz of yesterday.

It hurts when i use de guitar, fucking hell.

Dunno if it was Karate or the Moshpit.

Didnt realize it until today tho, so cant rly tell.

I got an sms tis afternoon frm de model agency today.

Got an audition.

I went there, waited for abt half an hour wif other ppl.

When it started, everybody juz had to individually let de photographer take photos of our hands.

Took a few minutes and de audition's done for everyone.

We laughed like crazy.

Who knew tt advertisments of hands required models?

2009-08-31T14:59:00.020+08:00

Ah, so long since i blogged.

Shall list out all the happenings since my last entry.

Ok, so exams are over, since quite a few days ago.

I cant say i did my best, and i cant say ill pass everything.

Juz hope for the best.

Rested at home for 2 days after de exams, so did nothing but eat, sleep, play.

Saturday went Baybeats Day 2.

It was very cool, cuz de Metal band on Powerhouse made the crowd form a wall of death.

Its giant if u think abt it, cuz Singapore rarely got such happenings.

De onli sad thing was tt i wanst inside de moshwall.

Sunday went Baybeats Day 3 after Karate.

Tts yesterday, so i've still got clear memory of it happening.

Prepare yourself for some heavy reading.

I met Venka at Marina BK, and then headed for the Esplanade.

When we arrived at the Arena, it was already crowded.

Cuz its Anberlin's Acoustic set, and everyone is dere to watch them.

It started drizzling, but thankfully nothing more than that.

Kinda startled me how many people listen to them, considering the fact tt they dont appear on radio.

Cuz nearly everyone sang along to their songs.

The digital age really is a friend and foe for musicians.

After their set, we headed to the Powerhouse to camp for their next performance.

Had like 3 bands before them, so stood dere for arnd 3 hrs? lol

Venka's secondary sch friend joined us first. She's hot, im nt kidding.

Then Dan, Shamel & buddy, Venka's another sec sch frien joined.

The crowd got bigger as the night gradually drew nearer. Partly cuz the band before Anberlin had alot of fans.

So people started moshing alrdy at tt time.

But it was during Anberlin's timeslot tt the audience went wild.

During the soundchecks, condom balloons and bottles were flying arnd.

I stood like half an hour immobile cuz all de girls arnd were trying to squeeze in.

When the band took de stage, de fun started.

People from all sides started pushing in front, and thus the ones at the center-front(like us) got sandwiched literally.

I got squeezed till it got hard to breathe. My head and body pressed on a girl in front, another girl pressed on me from behind, my right hand lied a girl's assline, my right hand was hard pressed on a guy's groin.

Was damn tempted to pickpocket the crowd surfers, or take their shoe and throw somewhere.

Its too crazy for any1 to notice anyway.

Been some time since i moshed like tt. Lots of grinding, pushing, touching, hitting.

But i guess i've never had de enthusiasm before to blog it down in detail.

Venka's friend got aimed by 1 guy, who kept returning to her back and grinding her.

But she enjoyed it, so its awesome.

The world gotta have more of girls like these. Or Singapore, at least.

Instead of bitching when getting dry humped and touched all over, juz have fun ya?

Cuz if u cant stand stuff like these happen in rock & metal gigs, ur better off listening to chinese pop.

I rmb once during a concert a girl juz screamed & slapped de guy behind him and pushed her way out wif her friends.

So lucky i wasnt him.

My shoe got soiled after tt.

But all's for fun & joy.

Looking at bands performing these few days, rly drives me to push myself to the limits.

Take up de stage, play for de audience, let them have fun.

Im but only the entertainers playing music, but ill be happy enough.

Live to play for people who love to play.

2009-08-15T01:00:00.002+08:00

Today, hmm.

Nothing happened today.

Study week starts now. Its time to mug like fuck!

Shoot for the stars so u can fall on the clouds.

Do ur best, and there'll be no regrets

For failure is understanding, and understanding is success.

Smile at misfortunes, as they are blessings in disguise.

For there are things in life we cannot control; we make do with the things we can.

And if grades were everything, shallow we all are.

2009-08-13T01:05:00.003+08:00

Yes, it feels like im starting to feel music.

My feel seems to have improved.

Im happy.

But my technical skills still remain stagnant.

So im learning Viking Kong to strengthen tt area.

Today went starbucks study macro wif stasha.

Canot believe im actually sitting down and studying.

Never expected such things to happen in Law & Management.

But its my last resort, so.

Either study now or retake subjects nxt year.

I dun have the fuckin time to do tt man.

Went training after tt.

And im home wif lots of blisters.

2009-08-06T14:41:00.003+08:00

Hmm, Hmm, Hmm.

Yesterday spent a total of $110.50.

Excluding Stasha's bag of $200, cuz i'll get it back eventually.

But watever lor, ill survive.

Simon and I are being targeted by the Karate ppl.

More responsibilities huh, the role of a captain.

Would be quite cool, but im not sure im up to it.

I joined tis CCA for physical & mental training, not leadership training.

Im not one who pushes responsibilities, but time and is sth i lack of.

We'll see. still got more den half a year to go.

Its too early to decide who's gonna be captain, vice captain or watnot.

Gotta go sch now.

2009-08-04T01:38:00.002+08:00

Finally able to blog.

Internet's been painfully slow these few days. I duno wat Starhub doing.

Ever since Starhub 'upgraded' their Big green wire, my internets always getting cut off suddenly.

Hmm, cant rmb much of wat happened these few days alrdy.

But I noe they're eventful.

Saturday

Karate at morning, then headed down to Downtown to watch BOTY asia.

Felt out of place, 1 thing being non bboy, another being my clothes.

But nevertheless, dope show. It screams of 'Beyond Human Limits' at your face.

Spend the whole day out, and rch home sleep straight away.

Sunday

Went to MeiXian's Birthday BBQ at noon at East Coast Park.

I dun get the complaints abt BBQ pits over chalet.

Motherfucking hell, juz let us younglings be.

U canot find the subconscious sounds of crashing waves in chalets anyway.

Hmm, back to topic.

Her birthday was, normal?

Ah but the fun onli begins when she & WeiLiang are alone, so i guess its OK.

I duno, i was listless the whole day. Hopefully tt din affect others.

Monday

Got POM tut at morn.

Couldnt get myself to switch on my mind.

Duno, juz felt very sian.

Got a call from BUS general office. Seems tt my MC nids to apply for appeal.

Need to meet Mr Lwooi to appeal for my MC acceptance.

Apa fuck sia.

Tomoro den i go appeal lor.

Yucks. Lump in throat, stake in chest.

Wonder? why

Dun like it one fucking bit.

2009-07-31T21:34:00.002+08:00

Yea, im finally done wif all de projects.

Feels alot lighter now, everything.

Today was the last 2 presentations.

Law op was easy, i duno y. CSA presentation was de lousy 1 instead.

Deres still exams b4 sem break tho. But nevertheless, it still feels good.

Juz realized recently, i've been doing things without putting my heart into it.

Be it Studies, be it CCAs, Music. Especially Music.

Sometime ago, i stopped playing music through my heart, and just focused on practise and improving non-stop instead.

I didnt enjoy it.

Recently though, i got it back somehow.

Now, it feels very good, whenever i pick up the guitar and play.

It feels really really good.

I play music to share, this feeling with others.

Its any musician's dream.

Aint anything big, aint anything significant.

But like any musician, we just hope it can be realized.

2009-07-27T14:34:00.002+08:00

Its a lazy Monday afternoon.

I rmb previously posting tt i've got a law class who is really united.

Im starting to take back my word for tt.

1L03 is disorganized. Theres firefights, theres issues.

Has become a boring class.

Juz hope for the better. I'd be happy if this course has one thing worth smiling upon.

2009-07-22T19:57:00.006+08:00

Yesterday was very very wierd.

Cuz i was sick, so im supposed to not feel good at all.

But went for sch anyway. Juz nid to siam those heat machines.

After sch went for Andy Timmons gig. Super.

Awe Inspiring, like a boy who presses color buttons on a plastic guitar watching a real live Guitar Hero pressing all 150 'buttons' in his face.

Abit unbelievable he clinic in Singapore, in a small shop like SweeLee.

Saw lots of local musicians i noe in de clinic, including my teacher.

I wonder if the local music scene rly is tt small. Juz consisting of a few hundred serious bands?

The whole performance i was feeling groggy, probably due to my fever and the gig experience.

Today woke up wif my whole body still aching all over.

Went for LSM. Half an hour later, LSM finish.

So went home sleep.

Blogging now.

Andy Timmons played for 40 years.

I wonder how long would i have to take to reach his standard.

I wonder how long would it take to even be classified as 'great'.

Im still nowhere there.

2009-07-20T21:10:00.002+08:00

Ugh, not feeling well.

Yesterday morn Joel came my hse house, and we practised.

Then until late noon lidat went to Plaza Sing, register for the AsianBeats.

Turns out, nid to give the lyrics for the original song upon registration.

De song didnt have lyrics yet, so we went to faster write out de song.

I juz nice finished at 9pm, but Yamaha said "Join us next year".

Bunch of fuckers.

Went home, and chionged POM project.

Today morning presentation. I had to sing.

Everything impromptu, the presentation, and the song.

Hope i pass for this.

Did abit of CSA and then went home to change.

Threw up and shit out all the things i ate, so the rest of the way i was drained.

Went out for jamming ltr, and then home.

And now, im sick!

2009-07-19T00:01:00.004+08:00

Michelle asked me to blog. So i shall.

Its been very very busy busy these few days.

Life's still the same, nothing has changed, juz alot busier.

Currently, i nid to finish up 3 projects by Monday.

I also nid to finish learning the songs for jamming by Monday.

Oh, the members for my TP band changed.

Nid to submit the asianbeats registration form by tomoro.

Lots of work, no time.

Kinda feel like giving up some projects, but i cant let my group people die.

Responsibilities everywhere.

But ok la, juz abit scared my mind break down onli.

Other than that, i'll pull through.

Oh, about my music skills.

Im beginning to hate my playing, cuz it rly sounds damn horrible.

I cant play fast, i cant make good lines.

Thus, im going to practise guitar alot alot harder, to make myself alot better, abit faster.

Hmm, what else.

Oh ya, i got PMS.

2009-07-07T12:21:00.003+08:00

Overslept yesterday, thinking it was youth day.

But lucky me, i was called and told POM tutorial teacher never come.

Continued sleeping til 3pm, then went TP for lecture.

Nico pointed out, this course has 4/5 girls population.

Hmm, i guess tt should be a good thing.

After sch, went SweeLee check out the Andy Timmon's thing.

Then Odiocrib.

Today's jamming was not so good.

But ok la, 2 weeks nv jam le, even if doesn sound good, at least feels good.

Nxt week will be better.

Hmm, should be joining AsianBeats.

Juz taking it as another opportunity to perform, nth else.

2009-07-03T23:27:00.003+08:00

Finally able to blog.

Eh, today many many things happened.

Chionged Lcomm presentation at midnight.

Slept at 5pm, woke at 7pm.

Then when i go TP, i forgot bring my Lcomm stuff.

Zzz.

Today's LSM test was horrible.

Prepare to die for this test le.

Every other tests i've been doing has onli been borderline passes.

I think tis 1 gonna be the first fail i get.

Today is MusixVox results day too.

Out of 20+ bands, 3 bands got in.

It wasnt us.

Yet another failure.

It is really true, that people pursue dreams, because they cant achieve it?

That people pursue dreams, because they wont come true.

Went to collect my photos today.

Its alright.

Yea, its alright.

I fall down, i stand back up.

Higher expectations, Higher disappointment.

Higher disappointment, Higher resolve.

Higher resolve, Bigger effort.

Bigger effort, Bigger rewards.

Bigger rewards, Bigger smile.

2009-06-24T00:18:00.002+08:00

Havent been blogging.
I kinda forgot de stuff tt happened de last few days.
Er, photoshoot was wierd.
Ppl find it hard to smile, but easy to look serious.
The camera man says im the opposite.
Didnt go sch yesterday. Didnt feel like it.
Submitted my half assed excel cuz i rly dun feel like doing.
Holiday mood ah, so totally no ideas for stuff like these.
Lucky i bothered to submit, cuz my com totally crashed after tt.
Had to reformat my com & everything, all my data lost.
Installed the new XP black edition, my windows looks fucking cool now.

Today went sch. Nth much.
After tt went SoMA for keyboards.
1st lesson, okok lo.
Grouped lesson of 4, teacher is Keith.
I noe de basics le, so onli nid memorize the beansprout.

Went to buy DjMax Trilogy.
Im broke now, but watever lo.
De game is addicting, so i dun care.

2009-06-19T00:44:00.004+08:00

Wednesday

4e3 class gathering, picnic on de afternoon.

Lol, i juz realized my secondary sch class is number 1 at stoning & going to to same places.

But ok la, no1 rly bothers to plan the activities, so best they can do is those le.

Evening, went Soma for guitar, then home.

Yea, i enrolled for keyboard. Gonna start frm nxt week on.

Thursday

Karate Camp.

Morning went dere, 1st programme straight away is training.

Nearly got killed by seniors.

Dey see i can stretch alot, purpously make me stretch farther.

Nerves until now still fkin pain, tnx to them -.-

They say i can be kicker, i wonder abt tt.

After tt was lunch, then games all the way till break camp.

1 day nia, like not enuf.

It was fun.

Today

Today was Supreme Court visit.

Hav to wear formal go in.

The whole place makes u wanna sleep.

The whole building looks damn relaxing, wif carpeted floors & nice chairs.

Inside their court chambers, the air-con is just nice.

The lawyer seats are damn comfy, can sleep 1.

The accused seat in sofas, damn no link.

Okok la, tis trip didnt do any help on my interest in law.

No lawyers get retrenched or fired, and they all enjoy June & December holidays o.O

& good fixed pay, its one of de few dream jobs any1 will hav.

But i dono leh, to be lawyer means i gotta get degree after poly.

Deres still no way i wanna go U

After court visit, pizza hut.

Then went to meet my parents to continue de interview.

Im going photoshoot tmr.

2009-06-16T01:05:00.005+08:00

Morning woke up & went off to odiocrib.

Lol, seems tt Joel's booking was 11pm-1am, instead of 11am-1pm.

So had to walk all the way to beatmerchants to jam instead.

Jammed like 3hours, to prepare for everything last minute.

Went TP for the audition after tt.

Went in the studio, we played 5 minutes, and next band le.

Dots sia.

Seems tt Vox onli gonna pick 5 bands out of i dono how many.

Doesnt rly matter to me, its the experience i want.

Of cuz, get in Vox means more gigs. So if we kena chosen, sure damn happy 1.

After everything was done, went home and put my guitar.

Then went off to The Arena.

Motherfucking hell, tt club is a damn good place to gig man.

Great vibe & ambience, & lots of hot girls.

Lol, the crowd onli noe how to groove to clubhouse music, they're freakin stoners in a rock concert.

Left straight away after all the bands performed.

Couldnt buy alcohol, & too tired to spend the remaining night partying.

Im improving too slowly

2009-06-14T00:53:00.002+08:00

Woke up at 2.30pm today. Jamming was 3pm.

Taxi down to Bugis, onli to find out tt Joel & Shaun at chalet.

Jamming was canceled, $10 was wasted.

All the sweat and money for nought.

Wats worse, we're nt prepared for Monday.

Motherfucking hell.

Went Penin to replace my guitar pickups.

250 dollars, ok lor.

Didnt rly bother to compare prices, im not good at guitar stuff anyways.

Rather a better pickups than a spoiled one.

But wif tis much money spent means the pedals gotta wait.

Hmm, yea im satisfied

2009-06-12T00:52:00.005+08:00

Went for job interview tis afternoon. De agency ytd called again.

Oh wow, part time modelling huh.

Quite a good job sia.

Got project, they offer u can accept or reject.

I guess the only thing bad abt this agency, is tt the consultant knows my mum.

Half of the interview she asking me abt mum & dad sia.

Went for Basketball inter-class after tt.

Lol, wat inter class? Onli me, dhabi & Joy representing 1L03.

Became a mixed class friendly match.

Lasted 1 hr, i came half an hour late.

Then go all home le.

Apa link?

Fuck, Terminator Salvation Digital yesterday last day.

FUCK

2009-06-10T21:57:00.004+08:00

Ytd StJames, left early at 1am+.

My parents overseas, fucking hell yeah.

My mood broke off ltr on de afternoon tho.

Today's jamming, Jin couldnt make it.

Realized tis 1 may be de last session.

Audition's on Monday, & every1's time is clashing.

TanJin MIA & Stasha CMI, so canot help them on anything.

Wat to do? Die lor.

Wordless today.

Pleased & disappointed at the same time.

2009-06-10T01:49:00.003+08:00

Juz came bak frm StJames.

Busy rite now, buhbye

2009-06-08T12:47:00.003+08:00

Yesterday

Went to Sgstrfest to watch Ridge's gig.

Frm wat i see, onli they solid.

The rest of de bands all rubbish 1.

Theres even 1 band who talks abt swine flu, men wif no nipples, aliens & dinosaurs, and make shit music.

Ben's pedal kit is horribly big.

Big until nid trolley to carry around.

I swear will not fucking get so much pedals man o.O

2-3 more sessions b4 vox auditions, huh?

Hmm, watever. Let it come.

I so badly wanna help every1 improve,

but they gonna have some desire for it first.

Except drums, tt 1 Joel on his own le.

2009-06-05T21:21:00.005+08:00

Feel like swearing and cursing today.

Today was a nice day, but i juz feel like it.

Made my bank card today.

As expected, i recieved the urge of spending instantly.

Cuz de account has like 6k, which i canot touch.

Went Bras after tt, while w8ting for the others to go odiocrib.

Today's jamming was so so, probably cuz we onli had 3 songs.

But de 3 songs oso canot do a nice complete run, lol.

Vox audition's at 15th.

Onli got a 2 more sessions, unless every1 agress to put in more time (or commitment, says Joel).

Went gear hunting after jamming. Then walked to dhoby gaut.

Wanted to catch a movie, but all wrong timings.

So homed.

Hmm, i dono y i turned down de modelling offer juz now.

Its extra cash for me luh. Bloody wasted.

Argh, feeling damn fucked up today la.

Whole day like got tis burning rage welling in my chest.

2009-06-03T20:57:00.006+08:00

Today's CSA test was stupid.

Freakin finished it in half an hour and left.

After tt, accompanied TanJin & Stasha arnd.

Hmm, guitar stuff hunt after tt. Then home.

I got a rough idea of my budget nxt month.

Gonna try to save like $500 fast, to buy my pedals.

Then another $1000 to buy my nxt guitar.

Nth much today.

My parents hav finally agreed to giv me allowance.

Can start saving up instead of spending aimlessly liao.

Tmr is last test, Lcomm.

Easy for others, but not so for me.

Then Term break after tt!

Hmm, i'll try my best tmr.

Then can celebrate VORACIOUSLY, RAVENOUSLY, RAPACIOUSLY.

Im hungry la.

2009-06-01T21:34:00.015+08:00

Argh, im having a bad headache now.

I'll try to slp after tis post. Tmr's macroecons.

1. Besides your lips, where is your favourite spot to get kiss?
- Neck
2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning?
- 5 more minutes....!
3. Who was the last person you took photo with?
- A stranger
4. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
- Heck, yes!
5. Would you ever donate blood? donate ??
- Sure thing. U want, i give.
6. Have you ever had a best friend who was the opposite sex?
- Yea
7. Do you want someone dead?
- Haha, no.
8. What does your last message says?
- "Thank you. Here is your ONE-TIME authorization PIN to today's McDelivery 24/7 order: 2970FC"
9. What are you thinking right now?
- Chawanmushi, lol
10. Do you wish someone to be with you right now?
- Cha Soba, ni iru. No.

11. What is the time did you go to bed last night?
- Nemu. Mune oo. Didnt sleep
12. Where did you buy the T-shirt you are wearing now?
- Cambodia
13. Is someone on your mind?
- Not with this split headache man, its getting fucked up now.
14. Who was the last person who texted you?
- McDonalds!
Tag 10 random people to do this survey.
1. Aldrich

2. Simon

3. Stasha

4. Jiaji

5. Janel

6. Hannah

7. Lester

8. Serene

9. WanYu

10. Qianhui

16. Who is no. 2 having relationship with?
- No idea, but i think arnd 3-4 girls?
17. Is no. 3 a male or female?
- Neither. It is a rare breed.
18. If no. 7 & no. 10 get together, would it be a good thing?
- Lol wtf. I'll get really jealous then.
19. What is no. 1 studying about?
- If i rmb correctly, nursing.
20. When was the last time you had a chat with them?
- Varies. From few hours ago to few months ago.
21. Is no. 4 single?
- I hope not, but probably so.

22. Say something about no. 3
- Unique
23. What do you think about no. 3 & no. 5 being together?
- Hmm, Lesbian liao.
24. Describe no. 9.
- Wow, stuck here. I seriously dono.
25. What will you do if no. 6 & no. 7 fight?
- Lol, i'll watch. I miss Lest's quirky fights.

26. Do you like no. 8?
- Lol! Yes ah, if we were tgt, som1'll b dead jealous. Or maybe not anymore.

2009-05-31T00:09:00.003+08:00

Alrite, lets see. Today's fully music, so i'll blog it.

Skipped Karate training today. Went to meet TanJin to buy our guitar stuff instead.

Gotta chnge my guitar's locking system, but i gotta dismantle de whole fretboard to do tt.

Cant afford to send my guitar for a few days tho, i've no other guitar to practise wif.

Waited wif TanJin for the rest, den off to Odiocrib.

1st jamming session for Band A (love the name), nth much to say.

Singer got the usual stage-phobia.

Bassist n Rhythm nothing to say, they can play.

Joel got owned by ZhengJie in drums, so i nt sure he got much confidence le.

Lets juz hope for the best.

Evening, went to watch a gig in Pcntre pub.

Every1 was doing metal.

Tis gig all the guitarists can play quite well.

Deres even 1 guitarist who is near virtuoso level alrdy.

Worth watch, to remind myself im nowhere near good, yet.

I juz did my POM quiz.

Pass or fail i dono, but i too tired to check answers.

Go sleep le.

2009-05-30T00:33:00.005+08:00

O my god.

Mid sem tests are next week.

& de onli thing i've studied is Macroecons.

I think can manage bah.

Got full marks for CSA excel test today.

Im just glad tt Computers are common sense to me.

Tt makes 1 less subject to mug on.

Duno how, but got like 5/50 marks for Lcomm mock test though.

Hmm, i shld log tis down.

Nearly lost my handphone for real today.

Gonna be more careful le.

Tmr is Karate at 10am-1pm, then Jamming at 1.30pm-3pm.

Hope Karate dun exhaust me out 1st.

2009-05-28T00:27:00.005+08:00

Lol, i cant believe myself.

I slept at 6am today, busy doing the LSM shit.

Slept like 2 hrs, den 8pm prepare go TP le.

Ok la, 2hr rest better den none at all.

LSM lasted 2hrs, then finish le.

Slacked and burnt away 6hrs wif Stasha Oscar Nico TanJin.

From TP to CS arcade drum to Yamaha to Starbucks.

Then went bak TP for Lcommskills Note-taking test.

Lucky i drank de Expresso at starbucks, rly kept me awake.

MusicVox meet-up after test.

Tt meet-up session's purpouse is to form bands if we dun alrdy have 1.

Then those in a band will sign up for the audition to enter Vox.

Lol, fucking hell man.

Theres juz too many ppl who play guitar.

In the end, cuz deres nt enuf drummers, the lead guitarist tt we met agreed to take up drums, halfheartedly.

I dunno, but we'll see how it goes.

Worst come to worst i don play lo.

Yea, tired.

Its 1am now, tt means I took 1 hour to blog in tis giddy state.

Sleep le.

2009-05-27T01:11:00.004+08:00

Hmm, let see.

I've now bankrupt.

Wif all de buying of new cables, gt mag, ez-link, blabla

I've finally used up all moola.

Left wif 2 dollas in my wallet.

Shall blog abt today.

Sch, nth worth logging.

Bused to dhoby gaut after sch. De bus was fuk cold.

It was still early when i rched, so i sat for a hot coffee to warm myself.

Bought tix for Angels & Demons, & watched it after my lesson ended.

Ended at 11.30pm. Lucky for me, last train.

Ate at Princess Mac, then home.

Its been quite long since i spent some alone time.

Glad i did today.

I juz rched home. Gotta start my LSM for ltr 9am.

Bye.

I've got no more strength to play along wif tis half-assed band.

DeJaVu has died long ago, I juz couldnt accept tt.

No1 is serious in tis band, so i should start playing suite.

Cant blame any1 though.

Nt every1 is like me, willing give up everything for the sake of pursuing music.

Since they see social life and love as more important, I'll respect tt.

2009-05-22T22:00:00.003+08:00

Boo, boring week.

Tis 2 days were pure stupid.

I forgot to save my excel i did yesterday, so i've to redo today.

I forgot to get Zouk passes tis Sunday, so had to cancel.

I forgot to save my pokemon tis morning, so i dun feel like playin alrdy.

The rest, i forgot.

Yea my blog is boring.

Wat to do? Life's kinda boring rite now.

So lemme bore de hell out of u too.

2009-05-20T16:38:00.005+08:00

Im going pokemon crazy.

Even tho i cant recall abt anything from my childhood, i juz feel damn happy when playing pokemon. =P

Ritez.

Ytd was Guitar Lesson day.

Cant rmb much of wat happened in sch, except for de headaches.

Managed to reach SoMa on time today, cuz i set off early.

Lol, 518 to dhobygaut on off-peak is $2 onli.

Nxt time take tt bus le.

Managed to do sth productive wif Ben tis time.

Finally understood modes, halfway. Which is a great achievement.

& im beginning to see his crazy side of the guitar.

I wonder if he plays better when drunk?

Today was LoL.

Played gameboy ytd night until 5am tis morning.

So onli slept like 3hrs.

& thus late for lesson too.

Lol, getting absent cuz of pokemon. Priceless.

Burned 4hr+ wif TanJin & his students playing guitar.

& now im at home w8ting 4 Karate.

Eh? Lol sure im very selfish.

I wont water a plant, if im dying of thirst.

2009-05-19T01:06:00.004+08:00

Found this on Staha blog.

Im taken aback, cuz everything is like low low low.

But wtf, My gluttony is higher then lust lol.

I desire good food more than fucking a hot girl.

Beat tt!

Greed:	Low
Gluttony:	Medium
Wrath:	Low
Sloth:	Medium
Envy:	Very Low
Lust:	Low
Pride:	Low

The Seven Deadly Sins Quiz on 4degreez.com

2009-05-19T00:20:00.002+08:00

Erp fuck, i accidentally deleted my post.

Dulan liao, so i shall onli briefly recap.

Saturday

Karate was good. D&D was fuckin boring.

Sunday

Rest day. Slept like pig.

Monday

Lousiest study day i've had so far.

PoM tut was freak slack, CSA lec was fuck useless.

Gym was tiring, cuz we ran de stadium track like 3 seperate times.

Run->Gym->Run->Gym->Run.

Dun tire ur ass off i clap sia.

Jamming on Weds is cancelled cuz i forgot inform every1.

ZzZ

2009-05-16T01:43:00.003+08:00

Lol, tis post is for logging.

Confession: I flared up on 15/5/09.

Lost my cool tis time to Oscar's attitude.

Managed to curb it once i realized, though.

Last time blood rushed to my head was 1 yr ago, April.

Gotta watch my temper.

Even if its becuz i wanted to help, i shldnt have flared up like tt.

Control, boy.

LoL, some1 said Karate is my anger management programme!

I juz wasnt conscious abt it....LOL!!!

Ok, i hope so lor.

But if i kumite kena KO means got ppl angrier den me ;D

2009-05-15T21:05:00.002+08:00

Braindead.

Poly's getting more intense, as the projects start coming in.

Cant stand CSA labs anymore,

3hrs of microsoft excels shuts ur mind off.

Wednesday

Jamming day, sort of.

Cuz Dan didnt book SP moberly studio, it was taken by others.

So had to go BeatMerchants instead.
Stasha joined in as bassist.

Lol, but still.

Venka forgot abt half de songs' drums.

Dan still couldnt figure out Starry Night's prog, and was clueless on Sharona.

I duno wat to say sia.

After session, went bak to TP for Karate. I liked it!

Lots of strength training, & de same amt of stretching.

Kicking is tiring.

After training, went to eat wif de seniors.

I think i got blacklisted by de year 2 captain.

Lol, preparing to get bullied tomoro.

Thursday

Lesson, & Home.

Practised the songs played by the Stasha&Zhengjie band,

in case they needed my help de nxt day.

Friday

Guess not. I wasnt even allowed to go see their jamming session.

No idea y. Dey dun like me, maybe?

Training tomoro. Then D&D.

I'll wear Suit for Karate and Gi for Prom.

2009-05-13T00:35:00.005+08:00

Today was shit.

I waited half an hour for 518, & tt 518 sent me to pasir ris instead of dhoby gaut.

Turns out i took the 518B, which goes nowhere.

The whole lesson was ruined, and there flies my $50.

Damn bitch.

But ignore tt, heres some pretty pics i took

been in my draft since i dono when.

A wedding chapel directly outside my hotel room

Exchanging wedding vows in this small chapel would be so cool.

The Sea, the Sky, the Forest;The Serenity

2009-05-11T01:57:00.003+08:00

Mother's Day

My Mum's overseas though.

So in a sense i still got time to buy or make a present.

Went over to Family Hse today.

Lol, cuz they planned for the celebration today, the young 1s will pay for food.

Had to fork like 30 dollars each.

My moola flies again.

2009-05-10T01:05:00.006+08:00

Giddy rite now.

Ytd Jiehao called. De guys were coming my hse to ton.

Didnt slp for de night, every1 brought laptop so we played til morn.

Duno if my mom was in a gd mood or sth? She treated every1 mac.

Afternoon 2pm headed for Tampines.

The bus was killer, nv come 1.

3.20pm rched Tamp mall, juz nice the movie time.

Watched X-men Wolverine. Cheap movie.

The CG effects is very fake, so much tt its became disturbing at parts.

Went coffee been stone after tt. Stasha was supposed to be studying.

But shihui had to go.

Ended up at Waterfront@Esplanade, wif stasha & her bf.

Normally i rly do mind abt couple presence, but tis duo is quite cute la.

Hmm, today's Philipines bands was disappointing.

I tried forcing myself to listen to them,

but ended up sapping my energy away and killing my mood.

Kinda envy them though.

These rich philipinos hav de budget to travel arnd the world to ruin ppl's day.

The power of $$.

Im aloof, according to de ppl around me.

No idea y, but ok lo.

2009-05-06T23:35:00.004+08:00

Lol, tired.

Very long day.

Tuesday was tiring, since i've to rush to dhoby gaut for guitar lesson after TP.

Rch home slept straight away.

Didnt even hear my handphone ringing when Joy called me.

Woke up tis morning den realize i had to rch TP at 7am.

Rushed dere in de rain.

Tutorial ended at 11am?

Slacked abit at food court, then headed off to SP wif stasha.

Rch SP den realized i got punked by Dan.

Ytd night say jamming 2pm, then 2pm he go play soccer.

Cuz today SP CCA exhibition, then dey all pre-occupied wif the activities.

Waited for them until fucked up, so left SP.

I dun wanna recount tt shit.

Lol, met Stasha's boyfriend, he is freakin cute.

Went to Peninsula Plaza to buy my pants, guitar stuff, etc.

Then went back to TP for Karate.

Kinda slack, for the first lesson?

Alot of insane stretching, but very little strength training.

I think nxt time will hav more bah.

Learnt some basics, and tts all.

Lol, i dun think i can quit anytime soon le.

I had to buy their gi.

But anything lor, i nid a cca anyway.

De gi is kinda cool anyway.

So clean, esp wif de white belt.

Hopefully i can see some blood on the belt in 1 year's time.

2009-05-03T01:06:00.004+08:00

Its been a long time since i treated myself.

Yesterday was 4e3 class gathering.

A handful of ppl turned up, but its ok.

I'd be glad to see less cat conflicts.

The gathering was kinda wierd.

Billy Bombers 1st, then Pasir Ris Park walk walk.

Den E-hub stone. We played some funny camp games.

I was having flu ytd, so killed my mood to do anything enthu.

But ok bah, at least we got in touch.

Today was more expensive.

I was suddenly called out to go Nicky house eat dinner.

Wore Damai PE shirt shorts splippers go.

Turns out is go Suntec de Tony Roma's -_-

Half BBQ Chicken set, and Tequila Sunrise.

Lol, i wearing Damai shirt dey still serve alcohol.

Not scared die.

These 2 days costed a bomb tho.

Hmm, but watever.

I wonder if i can learn bartending at this age.

Rly nid to work.

2009-04-30T21:38:00.002+08:00

*Yawns*

Juz a sum up of tis sch week.

Tuesday was tiring.

TP from 9am to 6pm, then SoMa at 8-9pm.

By the time i finish everything, Ben asked y my eyes so red.

Went toilet look into mirror, my eyes were bloodshot.

The dangers of tiredness+aircon+contacts.

Went home was 11pm le. But still had to practise for jamming de nxt day.

Turns out, jamming was cancelled last minute cuz Janel's bf cmi.

My classmate Stasha's bf frm Dmat, but he cmi oso.

Suay lor.

Realized i didnt bring my keys when rch my house door.

Stoned like i dono how long for my dad to come home.

Today was lol.

Every1 was asked to dress up nicely for today, cuz got presentation.

Kinda cool, to see every1 wearing nicely for lessons.

But it was even cool-er to have every1 deciding to skip lecture, lol.

U simply juz cant say no to this unitedness.

Thought i could finally sleep for like, 20hrs, since tmr is good friday?

But came home & saw pee all over de floor, coutesy of my pups.

Had to clean de mess up.

When i finished, its alrdy this time le.

I wonder wat CCA i shld join?

2009-04-27T23:27:00.005+08:00

Continued.

Tis was day 1 & 2, Seaside hotel in Okinawa.

I loved tt hotel, nearly everything was perfect.

From service, indoor and outdoor lightings, facilities, to computerised toilet seats.

Restaurant. I liked this shot, cuz i didnt like de humans walkin arnd.

I tot tis was marble. But it reflected my flashlight like de moon.

Its called Ryukyu

Their only flaw. My bed is more comfy than theirs :S

2009-04-27T19:53:00.005+08:00

De weather's too fucked up!

Hmm, today was different?

Morning went tutorial, and was greeted by about every1. o.O

Totally caught off guard, din expect dem to noe my name.

Turns out, tis class is freakin united.

Dey move as a class, eat as a class, slack as a class.

Seriously reminds me of my NPCC ppl, without de gays & de jokers.

De guys were cool, de girls were friendly.

Dere were music ppl, dance ppl, anime ppl, ex-npcc ppl.

Could easily talk.

I think deres gonna be catfights soon tho.

Deres this girl who's getting shunned upon by every1.

Dey say its her mouth.

But she's ok wat, when i talk to her.

Normal girls-sch bred character, I've known too many.

Buden I duno, its my first day knowing tis class, so...

Buden dey shldnt shun her like tt luh. Very mean.

2009-04-24T22:09:00.003+08:00

Dere was tutorial today, which i didnt noe.

Lecture can walk out 1, but de noise de door makes is LOUD, so nobody dares to try.

Couldnt find de lab room, so i skipped it.

Missed stop again today, thus had to go home from bendemeer.

TP ppl called. I got make-up lab on tuesday.

Hehe, so lecture and tutorial can skip 1, juz nid to watch out for labs.

But tt means tuesday im busy from 9am-9pm.

Yea, im happy,

Busyness and business is de same - dey're always good.

Been looking for night jobs.

I nid money, & asking parents for money would be de last thing i'll do.

2009-04-23T22:12:00.001+08:00

Urgh, talk about a bad day.

Went for tutorial today, onli to find an empty classroom, again.

Damn no link, cuz tt subject supposed to hav tutorial today.

Couldnt imagine stoning alone for 2hrs, so went Tampines 1 buy file.

Went bak for lecture, and turns out lecture time changed.

Had to wait 1 hour.

When lecture started, i was pushed to de front cuz every1 had 'chopped' seats.

Apparently every1 are in cliques.

Lecture lasted onli 10minutes, b4 de fire drill sounded.

Every1 was told to get to de basketball court.

Hmm, i guess i was angry?

So i went home instead of following de drill.

But i guess i still havent kena enuf bad things for today.

I missed my stop on bus 23,

& got transported from bedok resevoir, straight to bendemeer, in 1 stop.

2009-04-22T23:35:00.007+08:00

bernice-ND: opps.. i mean EX

20 Apr 09, 22:17

bernice-ND: no wonder ur gf dump u..lol

20 Apr 09, 22:17

bernice-ND: wad u know abt it ass?no sense of romance freak nv get a gf in ur whole life

Point blank.

No idea how she noes, but she's damn right.

I juz never realized.

I canot change the past, and there is no way of atoning for my mistakes at present.

If tt is punishment, I'll accept it, as I haven't any options.

But in future, if ever faced in a similar situation,

I swear i will never, ever make de same mistake again.

I swear.

2009-04-22T12:28:00.004+08:00

No classes today.

Plenty of time to slack o.O

bwL Sangocal visit

De camera's battery went flat after tis shot.

I got scolded by my mum, cuz i couldnt take pics of de factory, which was de most important part of de trip.

2009-04-21T16:31:00.003+08:00

Poly life, day 2.

Went TP at 1pm. De room im supposed to go was empty.

Turns out some tutorial onli week 2 den start.

Stoned for an hour, den went for lecture.

Abt an hour onli end le.

Saw every1 going home.

Lol, go home oso lor.

Hmm..

I've no idea who my classmates are, yet.

And i've no idea wat im studying yet, too.

Tis side life aint going too well, it seems.

Ah well.

Im onli doing this cuz every1 wants me to.

Doesn matter if i like it or not,

if it appeases them, im happy.

Music...let it be a secret ambition i keep.

2009-04-20T21:36:00.002+08:00

Uh huh.

Went TP at 8.30am to collect card.

And went home, cuz today's lecture was 4pm.

Went TP again, for tt 1 hour lecture.

Den went home again, for good.

Wad kind of crap is this?

2009-04-19T23:24:00.012+08:00

Yea my mum's back.

So is de camera.

Deres too many pics, see le dun feel like editing.

So juz gonna highlight some stuff of Okinawa in tis post.

Okinawa 'Marine City', & Shuri Castle (i think?).

More to come.

'Marine City'

Lol, i forgot abt taking photos of me

Japan serisously has cute things everywhere

Entrance

Lol, its squishy. Nearly killed de starfish.

Tis fish is actually BIG

Tis cute 1 is rly small.

Super giant eel

Elephant snail. Staring at us de whole time.

Duno wat dey r, but dey fucking cute!

Looks like a 3D movie lol

Whales. Awesome sight, rly.

Caught 1 swimming above. Dey're so big up close its scary.

Dolphin show

I was video-ing most of de time, so no pics on dem.

Maybe i'll upload de vid, 1 day.

Castle. Kinda small, but abit spooky?

Lol, tis part's spooky. I rmb every shot i take came out different.

2009-04-19T22:57:00.002+08:00

Tampinese 1 today.

Seemed like a budget building to me?

Doesn feel grand at all, for a new building.

More like..going to a supermarket.

Maybe its becuz of de ppl dere, whom were all wearing sleeping clothes.

Hmm...

Sch starts tomoro.

Finally.

Lets hope my class holds suprises.

Hmm, i guess ill try to smile. =)

2009-04-18T21:57:00.002+08:00

Jamming was today.

Went SP studio first, but it was closed.

So went odiocrib. But it was fully booked.

So walked to Arab street de studio, and jammed dere.

I like tt studio. Big & cheap.

Did 1 new song, lifeline.

Forgot to do Sharona.

After jamming, went to restring my electric at penin.

Was told de strings im using are flat washed, not acoustic.

Ok lo, point to myself - Dun make de same mistake again. Its too costly.

Fuck, total spent 70 dolla for strings tis time round.

Can faint luh.

After tt, marina square.

After tt, home.

So it seems tt i nid a matriculation card or sth.

If not canot c timetable, class.

& card was given out on orientation.

Uh huh...

I'll juz go office on monday morning.

Got a feeling tt life in TP's gonna be fucked.

Hmm, but i dun rly mind.

2009-04-17T20:19:00.000+08:00

Hmm, felt like blogging.

Guitar lesson juz nw. Dun think i can milk much knowledge out of Ben.

But who knows?

Motherfucking hell.

My electric string snapped this morning.

I bought strings juz nw, and restringed my axe, now tt im at home.

And waddaya noe?

It broke again!

At least the new acoustic strings fitted snugly.

Tt, im happy.

Gonna try arranging another acoustic song.

Ah my god.

I've got a gift tt cant be given.

Cant giv it to some1 else tho,

cuz i only want tt some1 to have it.

2009-04-16T21:39:00.005+08:00

Uh huh.

Seems tt my Orientation was actually today.

Blog hopped and found out abt it.

Hmm...

Well, doesn matter.

The letter is alrdy missing. My parents probably shredded it.

So i dunno for how, where, wat time anyways.

De events dey blogged seems time wasting too,

So probably not gonna go for tmr's one.

I wonder how am i going to report for sch though,

since i've got no timetable watsoever.

Pics of Jap trip will be posted when i get de camera bak.

Its currently inside a pouch, of a luggage, in a hotel, at Taiwan.

2009-04-14T21:27:00.002+08:00

Weee.

Okinawa, Japan. Cool place.

Dun feel like saying much, so i'll juz put down points.

Tt'll make me remember, de nxt time i read this.

Lets see,

Okinawa is US controlled.
Their english TV channel is pure propaganda, for US militarymen.
The scenery is beautiful.
Everything is clean. Water, Land, Sky.
De ppl dere lead very slow lives.
They have a 2nd life at avg 60yrs old. Meaning, 2nd husband =O
De ppl dere normally hav a lifespan of 90+yrs. LoL
Secondary school boys wear make-up! =D
De ppl dere are de friendliest i've ever seen.
Their rice is the best.

Tts abt it i guess.

Japan's trademark rly is Friendliness.

If Singapore ppl was ever like tt, i think i'd love tis country.

Tho somehow i prefer Taiwan tho.

Cuz de ppl are often just as friendly too.

Didnt go though

Dun see a point in following my mum dere.

cuz its 5 days of stoning in Taizhong office.

Gotta go Japan again.

But wif some1 my age.

Tis trip, i was de onli young one.

Boring in a sense tt i've got no1 to play wif.

I pity Kiang now.

2009-04-11T01:18:00.008+08:00

Mum bought a new cam today.

Olympus µ-9000

Easy to use, High quality, and looks stylish.

Plus its cheap!

Hope i can take good shots out of de trip.

Heres 1 pic.

Found the leaf lying under my carpet.

Which is kinda strange, cuz i keep my windows closed.

Tsk, obviously i know wat this meant.

Go ahead stupid boy, try as hard as you can.

Ur playing against fate here.

Fallen leaves do not and cannot turn green again.

Ur not gonna get anything but hope. FAT hope.

The leaf will slowly dry up, and when 1 day it crumbles into pieces,

tt'll be de day, where u will finally slap urself in the face, and say,

I give up.

2009-04-10T19:06:00.006+08:00

Swapped webnames wif my old blog.

Wanted to delete de old blog originally,

but when i heard de Imeem song play, i decided to leave it dere.

Its been dere for like 2yrs? So why not a little longer.

Pay homage to her a little.

06.04.09 - RIP, 阿桑.

Her passing may not be publicised heavily,

But songs live on, works stay.

She will remain in people's hearts.

I believe for an artiste like her, tts all tt matters.

天上的叶子,相信会随着她身影飞翔

Im going Japan tomoro morning.

Totally forgotten abt it till today.

No time to say goodbyes

2009-04-10T00:42:00.007+08:00

Yea, song is finally done.

Didnt realize its nighttime again alrdy.

Been doing the song since after i blogged yesterday.

Haha, i superhuman le.

Never eat, never sleep, juz working on this song for more than 24hours.

Im happy though, cuz the result this time quite nice.

Recorded like more den a hundred times.

My fingers now hurt like fucking hell.

But its worth.

Its a simple, simple solo piece.

Tt expressed my emotions.

Dedicated to her

Regardless if she hears this or not.

不要对他说Bu Yao Dui Ta Shuo (Acoustic) - AnDy!

2009-04-08T23:25:00.002+08:00

Felt like blogging.

Didnt realize i havent posted for more den a week.

Bball today. Den went home.

Tts abt it.

Ate cookies for dinner. Havent any appetite, tho im kinda famished.

I've been trying to arrange an acoustic solo piece of a song.

Im dead tired, but i think im gonna try recording ltr.

I juz feel like doing so.

Hopefully, it can be done in 1 shot.

2009-03-29T21:59:00.006+08:00

还记得,我和她曾经拥有过一个不属于愛的愛情故事。
对我来说,
从以前到现在,我们的关系依然还是一样不变,
不过只是一般朋友罢了。
但,我现在才发现到,我们对彼此的感情,的确是有变化了。
从那一天开始,我对愛的渴望,无能为力,不停地增长,
而她对我的情感,好像已不存在了。
真可笑,因为我经日正发觉到的,却是一见残酷的事实,
'一切都已经太迟了'

2009-03-29T01:28:00.005+08:00

This is wat i do when im bored.

Melodic wanking for the evening.

Lazy to do de other half, so may sound boring, cuz no high-point :P

Ill do the other half, if ppl like this track.

OK, so imeem is making all my songs 30sec previews, including my OWN SONGS.

Found a temporary site to upload this track.

Very cool site.

Doesn seem to have embed function tho. But can download songs =O

http://www.purevolume.com/mythozux

Reflections Backing Track - AnDy

2009-03-28T02:07:00.003+08:00

Ok, so TianTian is not pure poodle.

My parents sent her to vet today, and it turns out she is mixed.

Poodle/Maltese.

U shld c my parents face when telling me tt.

Like kena con lidat.

I duno, but i dun give a shit.

Dogs are life.

Who cares if they are of different breed?

In humans, i dun c wats so diff between Chinese, Indian, Malays.

Let alone mixed bloods -.-

Maybe tts y de shop owner willing to cut half de price to sell her off.

Maybe tts y my parents are angry.

I dono.

I noe im supposed to sleep, else im nt gonna get better.

but 4 some reason, i juz cant

我想太多了吧.
喜欢我, 作梦才有

2009-03-27T20:20:00.000+08:00

Ugh, im feeling like shit now.

Today woke up alrdy feeling abit sick le.

Afternoon went jamming wif Dan, Venka.

Janel today cmi, Shamel locked up by police.

3 ppl nia, but OK la.

They said it was the most productive jamming session so far.

They happy, i happy lo.

After tt, Guitar lesson.

I think its here tt i caught fever.

I walked frm Bugis to Dhoby Gaut with the fucking sun and heat.

Alvin's leaving SG. Going to Berklee's!!

Last lesson wif him, and i was late.

So onli hav like half an hour to ask him questions.

Turned out to be de most productive lesson also.

Haha, its onli when there is not much time left, tt things start happening.

I wonder if im suddenly left wif 1 month to live.

Or 1 month b4 i go overseas forever, if tts more appropriate.

Wat would happen luh.

Cuz it seems to me tt Alvin's alot more happy today.

Making every second count, every minute worthwhile, b4 he goes off to USA.

Juz wanna blog down wat he told me, so tt i dun forget.

Alvin said tt its OK to fall.

On de contrary, we must fall, so tt we can learn to get up.

He fell alot of times too when pursuing the music dream.

Same reason as i, Stagefright.

So to overcome it, he participated on lots of performances that he knows is can die 1.

Performances in front of musicians, ppl who eat guitar for breakfast, lunch, dinner.

Just as long as i do not give up, i stand a chance.

Plus, im still young.

My skills, theres still alot of time to hone.

If its gonna take 2-3yrs to master 1 hard song, so be it.

& still got lots more failures to go through.

Juz make sure everyone of my failures, i can get back up.

Tts it.

:Yea, tts not exactly wat he said. But at least, tts wat he made me understand:

Tts life in the Music Industry. Or even de entertainment bizz

I rmb i heard Kieth juz nw saying tt even he is trying like hell to enter the Chinese Music Industry.

Cuz the Taiwan showbiz always use the same ppl do run events, so de onli way to get inside is to be among the 'same ppl'.

So if the 'same ppl' are good, u hav to be better.

& friendly too.

He said Ruth Ling got in cuz she is de friendliest person to do businesss with, and she's freakin good in music.

Tts how she got from the reserve keyboardist, to full-time artiste.

2009-03-26T23:35:00.011+08:00

Mm well, pics.

My parents named her TianTian.
I dono wad kind of name is tt, but anything lor.

Siam ah, zhao ah, hide ah.

Wtf for luh.

Its juz pissing ppl off onli.

For the record, im pissed.

2009-03-26T01:25:00.006+08:00

I rmb being 'wow'-ed by Sungha Jung when i first saw his vids.
Well, the 'wow' factor has juz increased.
2 reasons: Haruka Kageyama is 10yrs old; she's a girl.
Its not everyday u see girls do these. Better than men a lot older than her too.

Seriously, after Obama, i think the next president's gonna be a woman.

Girl Power.

2009-03-25T21:11:00.005+08:00

Hmm, today was kind of crap.

I wanted to blog abt Damai Talentime '09 tis morning, being disappointing & all.

But got a few other more disappointing stuff.

So my mood's been totally killed.

Went to stone wif at Kim's hse after sch.

Burned a few hours, and rushed of to meet the band.

I thought i was late, but ltr i found out i got fucked.

No1 knew today got jamming.

Never mind lo.

Me Janel 2 ppl went Aljunied studio.

After tt dinner, den home.

Stupid day

2009-03-24T22:03:00.006+08:00

Freaky news today.

I woke up, watched TV for abit.

My parents came bak, and my mum got to the living room first.

On her hand was a plush toy, or at least, i thought it was.

Then my dad came in with a small cage.

Its only when they told me they've got a companion for Snow, that i finally got the picture.

So summary: My parents bought another pup, and it looks fake.

The shop owner onli said its a poodle. But poodle got so many kinds luh.

So from wat i can guess, its a Toy Poodle.

She's a bitch. Looks like a bear, like all pups.

Apricot in colour, with brown hues on ears.

Fur hasnt curled yet, but still looks damn fake to me.

Very small (she can squeeze thru the kitchen fence!)

& Snow is afraid of her -.-

Shall post a picture of her when she's settled down abit.

She's worth 2.2k, but my mum managed to cut the price to 1.3k.

Well, once news spread, im gonna expect much attention once again.

Every1's gonna wish dey had such a dog, let alone 2.

& then they'll lead to money issues, blabla.

Then they'll lead to me.

Seriously.

These kind of things, i buay tahan 1.

2009-03-24T01:58:00.002+08:00

Yesterday evening,

went to family house to celebrate Dad's birthday.

He's 58, next month.

But we were celebrating his 60th birthday, this month.

Lol.

Yea, its illogical to me, but it made perfect sense to Taoist/Buddist religion.

Well, doesn rly matter i guess.

I never considered age or physical appearance to be of importance anyways.

Dad's still in this world; healthy, spirited.

Tts all that matters to me.

Today was, boring.

At home whole day nth do, so tank Starry Night.

The easiest song i can find, yet i canot perfect it.

Hows that for a wake up call?

You suck, Andy.

Brought Snow out for a walk, cuz she's been cooped up at home for abt a week le.

Gotta start giving attention to her discipline le.

Well, its rly freakin boring rite now. Tts y im blogging.

Kinda wish i was schooling rite nw.

Abit scared i go TP waste 3 years tho.

Maybe i shldve retaken O levels, get a better score, try SP dmat again.

Maybe going bak Damai was better then moving on to a poly i dun want.

Or maybe im juz being stupid.

2009-03-21T23:55:00.005+08:00

BBQ today.

I was late, woke up at 3pm lidat. Went dere alrdy like 6pm le.

The weather was unforgiving. Rain non-stop.

But we all 20+ ppl managed to juz BBQ in de rain like its nth lidat.

Then home after tt, and tts all for today.

Song list for nxt week's session

1. 'Take Five' - Dave Brubeck. Dan's guitar challenge.

2.'Love remains the same' - Gavin Rossdale. Dan's vocal challenge.

3.'Starry Night' - Joe Satriani. Andy's guitar challenge.

Three songs for nxt week.

This feeling tt i canot control, strangely im not rejecting it.

Juz keeps getting worse by the days.

Watever lor. Makes no difference.

Venka said TP business school 3/4 is girls.

I dun think im gonna escape alive, and smiling.

The same things are gonna repeat.

Love, relationships, Lovelorn.

A few good things to remember, alot more bad things to forget.

Yesh ah, my parents won 4D.

My $50 is saved!

2009-03-20T18:28:00.002+08:00

Wtf, wats wrong wif me man.

Im supposed to have Guitar every Friday 6pm.

Its 6.30pm, and im at home.

I manage to forget abt my lesson.

Wtf man. Argh.

Been unable to sleep properly, since tt day.

Maybe tt explains my memory block.

Ah well, tt makes $50 worth of lesson missed.

And nope, my parents are definitely not paying for that.

Lol, i screwed myself up again.

2009-03-18T23:00:00.009+08:00

Nth much to blog abt these days.

Just the hot/wet weather, & my knack of sleeping in the morning and waking at noon.

Nth much to do these days.

Went library on tuesday.

Qianhui asked me to help on maths.

Guess i did try to avoid some things.

But in the end, the friend brought them up.

So yea, once again.

Everything i tried putting aside.

Tired of trying to do this, trying to do that.

I'd rather keep things as they are,

than try, & watch everything fall apart.

Once more.

Went jamming today.

De vibe was different i guess. Quite, cool.

I didnt care much abt anything today. Maybe that explains the vibe.

But yea, productive session lor.

Forever by papa roach was covered nicely.

For nxt session,

i asked every1 to find a song tts challenging to them.

So gonna hav 4 songs nxt week, at least 1 of which will be sth that is challenging for me.

Now why didnt i think of that b4?

I actually smiled at the unexpected.

Im eating the wrong medicine man, seriously.

2009-03-14T18:46:00.012+08:00

Went SimLim today, bought my mouse & mousepad.
Den home, onli to recieve tis letter.

_______________________________________________________
Dear Chong Wen Da, Andy

ADMISSION FOR FOUNDATION STUDIES - AUGUST 2009 INTAKE

Thank you for you application to study at LASALLE.

Your application has been carefully considered and we regret to inform you that it has been unsuccessful.

Nevertheless, you may wish to take this time to build up your portfolio and/or academic qualifications to be considered for future intakes.

Thank you for your interest and we wish you all the best in your future endeavours.

Yours sincerely
XXXXXX
Director
Division of Academic Administration
_______________________________________________________

Watever lo.

2009-03-14T00:03:00.004+08:00

Hmm, felt like blogging abit.

I've nt been bloggin cuz nth rly interesting happened these few days, so .

Other den IT fair, i cant remember anything else anyway.

Its abit fucked up, why some things i forget so easily, while others i can never erase off my mind.

I can still rmb clearly.

1 yr ago, during this month, from start to end, wat i was doing, how i was feeling.

Happy, sad. Nervous, frustrated. Joyous, angry. Confused, regret.

But strange tho, that until now, im still clueless why i did wat i did, wat i was thinking, how it ended up crashing.

Could be, that i can remember everything,

Was tt, last year, this month, i had memories worth remembering, keeping.

Might have been less than a month.

But at least i remember.

These beatifully rare occasions of life, i never forget.

2009-03-07T00:39:00.002+08:00

Haha, i fucked up.

Lasalle audition today, i was nervous.

Didnt expect the audition to be every1 sit de room.

The theory test involved in writing melodies over chords.

Everything was is classical notations.

I left the whole paper blank.

Performance, had to play for all to c.

My turn tt time?

I went up de stage, & blanked out.

Couldnt recall de songs i was playing, couldnt recall how to play it.

For the 1st time in my life, i got stagefright.

wat the fuck man.

I noe de reason why, but im nt gonna care le.

Im nt gonna hope anymore.

Law & Management, fine lor.

I alrdy noe tt im fuckin stubborn on this music thing.

No matter the setbacks, no matter how many times my dreams get cruched

I wont quit Music.

Buden, it still feels like shit.

To try so hard for Talentime, and fail.

To try so hard for Teachers day performance, and fail.

To try so hard for 'O' levels for SP dmat, and fail.

To try so hard to make my band go pro, and fail.

To try so hard to put on a good impression at Lasalle audition, and fail.

Its all de same. I tried so hard.

If tts my problem, then im gonna start taking things easy frm now on.

Tho i cant help but wonder, where will this take me to.

2009-03-05T19:29:00.002+08:00

Hahaha, im high today.

Juz bought my compressor/sustain pedal today.

Finally, after so long, my guitar sounds correct!

$121 luh, but at least its very worth.

And i also bought warhammer online, and gonna start playing ltr.

$69 dollars o.O

But i expect it to be nice? So dun care luh.

I declare broke today.

Im left wif $0 savings liao, gonna start finding jobs tomoro.

Audition is tomoro, & i havent written de 2 compos =P

Duno if i shld write onot sia.

Maybe if dey ask me write on de stop tmr den write lo.

Gotta test their system sonner or later anyway, y not now?

Hmm......aiya wtf man.

Hope i do well tmr

2009-03-03T02:19:00.002+08:00

aaaahh!

I've onli got a few days left, and i havent done finish anything!

Somehow i canot manage to finish recording my 2 simple backing tracks.

And better still, i havent even start on my 2 compos@!

'Are waffles better than pancakes?'

How the fuck am i to know?? Idiot!

AAA!

Relieving stress.

roar.

Hope i can complete my homework.

Buden,

some1 help me on compo writing?

2009-02-28T01:43:00.002+08:00

Been practising hard these few days.

Frankly, im not confident.

But im nt giving it much thought, so as not to kill myself wif negativity.

Lesson today was worthwhile.

I will learn more, hear more, play more, practise more.

Even if its juz a short amount of time.

As long as i set my heart to it, i will improve.

1 week left.

May be joining stardust.

C how the band fares 1st.

Been making noise more than music the last few lessons so,

i've got no confidence.

Well, seems tt i've got no portfolio of my own to intro.

Gonna do some recordings then, dun rly matter wat

Juz nid ppl to hear my playing

& it shld be fine i guess.

We'll c if the Logic Pro i downloaded works onot.

But first i gotta find bak my lost thumbdrive...

or buy a new 1

2009-02-25T00:58:00.003+08:00

Went celebrate kiang upcomin bday today.
Went swimming at Chinese Gardens, then go Kallang dere eat.
$$ fly sia =P. Each person like $36 dollars.
Been spending money like nth these days.
Seriously, i wonder where all these money come from sia.
My parent's been giving less allowance than wat i spend luh.
But strangely i still can last, tho nt 4 long le.
Kiang bought a Razor mousepad, to combo wif his mouse.
Freakin gay.
Bens&Jerrys in tubs taste like shit.
Bought 2 flavors, but buay tahan.
Waste my $30.
Buden since i've not eaten expensive desserts for like ages le, i guess its ok bah.
Tho still waiting for ppl to go eat-in Haagen-daz wif me.
The voucher's expiring soon.

Haha, lucky me.
Uzair called me ytd and asked me abt the Lasalle audition.
He made me realize tt i havent been practising Blues.
Focused on jazz too much previously, and kinda forgotten abt it.
Must start researching le.
10 more days

Happy Bday, Loh Kiang Chee!

2009-02-22T23:00:00.003+08:00

Shit man, im getting worse.
Aldrich juz announced he quit juz ytd, and im not feeling gd alrdy.
Dun wanna think abt it too much yet, tho. Its juz more troubles.
Thought som1 could lend a listening ear today, but guess not.
I've onli left like 12 days left to prepare for de audition le.
Wasted a day, and still feeling heavy.
The troubles never stop. And so does time.
I gotta pick upself up from wherever i am now, and start sprinting.
No matter how tired i am, still gotta run.
Cuz if i stop, tts it for me.

3 things i canot miss out in life: Dreams, Love, Life.
Dream is in my hands right now, for now.
I'll cherish it.

2009-02-21T20:43:00.004+08:00

Hmm, i guess im in control wif myself again.
So i'll continue blogging.
These few days, been juz letting myself do wadever i feel like doing.
Walked arnd the city for a whole day, spent the night anywhre but home...u get de point.
Ya sure, no1 and such pei u walk or stone can be stupid.
But watever lo, for a few days nia mah.
Got friens arnd dey oso think ur head screws abit loose le.
So nt much diff.

Today supposed to go piano lesson.
But instead, walked in Yamaha and walked out.
Since im quitting and yamaha de system is 'u dun go dey dun care'.
yes.
Waited for de lesson to end, then went to sign de quitting form.
After tt, stoned & waited 4 sth to do.
Nth, so home-ed.
No dinner as usual.
Dun feel like ordering mac tho.

I think i've destressed.
But my whole body isnt feeling any lighter tho.
I noe tt its onli been 2 days since i was reminded of wats missing in my family.
But got sth more tts bothering me.
Hopefully i'll find som1 willing to lend a hand.
Lets hope. U hope for me too, lol.
Until then.

2009-02-20T01:13:00.007+08:00

I think i finally understand why me and my parents don't click.
But i'll leave that for myself.
It aint worth blogging about to others.
Im feeling abit better now, after a few this n that happened.
So i guess, yea.

Went out wif de guys today.
Didnt join them for soccer and swimming in the morning.
I've been unable to sleep these few days.
My mind wont switch off wif all these shit happening recently.
So fell asleep at arnd 6.30, and woke up at 2pm.
Very late, so onli joined them for Seoul Garden.
Happy birthday Owyong.
Went play lan, den go home.
This was the time i found out i lost my bike.
MRT station dere.
Searched and searched to no avail.
Fucked up, went home.

About my bike.
I actually bought it without my parents concent.
Cuz they didnt approve, said it was dangerous and stuff.
But i still bought it, cuz of the benefits.
Save transport time, transport money, and its a form of exercise.
But becuz they care too much abt my safety, i couldnt let them know.
When they found out, they didnt like it.
Not becuz i had bike, but becuz i didnt discuss wif them.
As if they would agree.
And not long after, i lost my bike.
If tts not enuf, heres wat my mum said.
'From the moment i found out abt ur bike, i knew it was gonna get stolen sooner or later'.
My Dad
'I am actually more worried about you when u had the bike, then when u lost it.'
Wad the fuck man.
U say i must accept ppl's opinions.
Tt aint a fucking opinion man.

Its too bad huh?
I've got no1 else who rly cares abt me other den my parents.
But i feel no love.
Wats the point?
If no one's gonna pull me up when im down, then so be it.
I'll do it myself.

Affection.
The 1 thing i would'nt dare to dream about.

2009-02-19T23:44:00.003+08:00

Lost my bike.
Tt adds on to my lost list.
1 wallet, 4 handphones, 2 mp3s, 1 PSP, 1 bike.
As usual, got scolding from parents.
Tho this time, it rly aint my fault anymore.
Unless ur telling me tt since i bought the bicycle, its my fault.
Ill fuck u up for tt.

Not blogging wadever shit happened today.
Fuck this.

I wonder why
Everything i cherish
have to be taken away?

2009-02-18T23:03:00.002+08:00

Before i know it, i've onli 17 days left to the Lasalle audition.
I havent rly managed to come up wif fancy stuff.
Yea, and im abit worried tt i wont be able to.
Fuck man, every day hear rock, pop, those music tt is for the mainstream.
Its freakin hard to fluently play jazz out without my ears being used to jazz sounds.
And i've got no mp3 to store jazz songs and hear them.
So cant do ear training.
But yea, cant give up.
Do my best.

Long time since i drank starbucks.
I wonder wats so special abt Frappa tt draws me in.
Head hurts whenever i think of it tho.

It will go naturally huh.
I wish that worked for me.

2009-02-18T00:21:00.002+08:00

Well, lets see.
Lasalle audition's juz a few leaps away.

Yesterday, went to chalet organized by junhui dey all.
Yea, got a chance to ask Spruce abt music.
And ended up tokin alot alot abt it.
Sure, Lasalle might not have a gd cert
but since when does any1 see cert when it comes to music?
I aim for Lasalle, to experience, not to pass exams lol.
So sad he chose TP to Lasalle.
But yea, tts life.
Different ppl walk different ways to reach their goals.
I have my own route.

Ton overnight at de chalet, den cabbed home.
Couldnt slp, probably cuz so many things r happening
My mind juz kept on working.
Bz Bz.
Today Janel tanked song compositions in my house.
The songs are good, but missing a little bit of magic.
But yea, if can come up wif sth fresh, sick liao.

Dinner out.
Found out some bad news, and a depressed boy.
I feel for you, but wat can i do?
If de onli way for u to escape is shady company,
Then its ur decision.
I'll respect it.

I shld start minding my own business.
Try to.

Tired

2009-02-15T21:35:00.004+08:00

Wtf.
Who would've expected this?
I didnt.
Chill Andy. You're figure sth out.

Stuck i am.

2009-02-15T12:15:00.005+08:00

1402/09 - Valentines Day.

Wasnt a romantic day. for me at least.
Cuz you hav ppl crowding around the city areas.
U have shops closing for the occasion.
U have KFC and Pizza waiting time extended to 3hours.
But hey, it still was a good day, no?
U feel happy for the ppl who got flowers.
& u feel for the ppl who dont too.
Brought Snow out to the cafe wif some new friends i unknowingly made.
Friendly bunch, i like them.
Dog was cute too,
His name was Valentines.
Spent the whole day wif them.

I still went out during the night to talk.
Mostly with Aldrich.
Guess i finally grasp the situation now, of the band.
Im not gonna solve our problem alone though.
A band is a team, not a 1 man show.
Its either we do it as one, or walk our own ways.
The things im doing now, its probably cuz i gave up hope long ago.

Lots of things have cleared up ytd.
Today tho, im still feeling like shit.
Wonder why.